WHY

This is such a desperate call out to God right now. WHY am I not understanding school...I want to work for him. I'm just not understanding. I've spent 3 hours on 2-3 problems that should take 15 minutes each at most. I FRIGGIN' SUCK AT THIS SCHOOL THING. I'm not even sure what I'm cut out for right now God. I think I'm doing this for you and yet I don't seem to be able to face the challenge...WHY???? I'm missing a piece of the puzzle. God, give me the strength to get the puzzle made. I need this grade. I need this grade. I need this grade. Why is it so hard for me???? God, this is hard and I ask why???? I love you and you are my hope, but it's hard for me to see this hope struggling with homework at 2:45 in the morning.

-your servant

EDIT: Don't take this post as me being a dramatic freaking out person on the verge of collapse, school is just so frustrating when you don't understand something that you want to do for the rest of your life.