a crucible of my thoughts

I just got called an f***ing jagoff tonight for walking near a car. I definately can tell you I didn't miss that part of a college campus.

I think I could be a football coach for sure. I've designed some pretty sweet plays on Madden 06 and I'm keeping strong on making many more. I want to make an entire playbook of my own plays and own forms.

I really hope I'm not losing my high from LT. Tonight we had something called Upper Room which was a time of worship and prayer. The worship was great, but I just wasn't feeling the prayer tonight.

I hoppe the Illini put a good showing up against San Jose State. I really want a great team by my senior year and bringing in recruits now will harbor a good year then.

Theresa Grentz, the head women's basketball coach came into my TAM class today. That was kind of weird. Although it really showed an effort and she is somebody I really respect for doing that to get students to come to her games.

I really don't think I'm losing my LT high though, it's more of tonight was just not feeling me and I not feeling it.

Why do I have no motivation to do my classwork even though it's technical stuff that I like? I feel like I'd rather just be doing physical labor.

Let me just say as I continue to type this post, an interesting development is coming into my life. God is definately surprising me like I asked him to.

Girls are a funny breed.

My favorite color changes. Does anyone else find it odd that I can't stick with one color?

I've been to lazy to call people this week and because of it, I've got one friend thinking I'm ignoring her and my mom thinks I'm still angry at her from last weekend.

I'm excited about the new people at iLife, although I'm disappointed I haven't had more time to invest in them. It turns out Engineering takes a lot of time.

Madden NFL 06 is an infinitely superior game to ESPN NFL 2005. I can actually move my defensive schemes around so much, it's crazy.

It's 3:07. I should proly go to bed. NAH!!!! I'm not even tired.

It's 3:22 and I'm starting to get tired.

This making a whole playbook thing could take longer than I initially thought. I just like to run the same play over and over and make sure it works.

I'm glad I met friends this summer that live in mountain time so they're willing to talk to me at 3:20 when it's only 2:20 there.

I love God a lot.

Sydney is gonna be really disappointed with me as I've already fallen disgustingly far behind in our deal to read the Bible in one year together. That could pose a problem. I'm gonna have to do a lot of catching up.

I think I'll end this post now.

p.s. - the picture is of my day campers at our Fourth of July parade. We were dressed as Packers fans. It was probably one of the greatest days of my life.